There once was a girl, her name was Claire. She was living a great life, many could be envious of her for it because it seemed as if things would just land in her lap. She could have anything she wanted but she wasn't happy. She wasn't like that celebrity who cried every night because she wasn't loved; it was more along the lines of she wasn't doing what she knew she wanted to do. She knew deep down in her heart that there was more out there for her.
Claire was quite the dreamer, she dreamt of traveling to many different countries carrying nothing but a backpack. She loves the outdoors and meeting new people, she's always wanted to live in other types of cultures and to learn different languages but she never got around to doing it. She always wondered why. Maybe she just never had the means to do it. And when she would talk to her friends and family about it of course they would make plans but they would never follow through. Not only were there empty promises but she also notice that sometimes they would talk her out of it, especially if it wasn't something that they were up to. If they weren't doing that they would turn this so-called 'trip' into something she never intended it to be. It's not like she ever wanted anything crazy...just new, or different.
With her realizing all of this and having to take it in so often, it made it hard to want to stick around with the people that would...we could say, hold her down... She was positive they didn't hold her back on purpose, maybe they just really liked her company and didn't want to be without it? Or maybe they were just too cautious of her safety. But for some reason, she wasn't. She was very trusting, some would say that she had too much trust in her fellow man. She lived off of one rule, do unto others as you would have them do unto you. It was simple and it made life easier.
She's moved around from place to place year after year and jumped from job to job in even shorter periods of time. Although she was climbing some sort of ladder of success, she still couldn't seem to find what she was looking for! After long days of boredness, monotony, and getting back to the old grind; she decided to devote her time to researching a different lifestyle.
She narrowed her choices down to two options; one would be that she could marry the guy she's been with for a couple of years and start a family. This was the more realistic idea of the two but still probably wouldn't happen at the rate things were going. Problem is, she's dating a guy much younger than she and hasn't had the same life experiences she has...meaning that he's not as ready as she felt she was. For example, she's finished with school, makes decent money with a pretty cushy job, already had a baby, and landed herself a house right out of high school. She would like to believe that she's ready for a family with the only person she can see herself with. She would be so happy if he could make her all his and they could get their little house together and have little kids and be able to climb giant mountains together. But he wouldn't do it. He wouldn't budge, no matter how she asked, or how she presented the idea he would turn it down. It was almost safe to say that he didn't want her but didn't want to see her with anyone else...even more. She thought otherwise. Claire was always patient with him. She loves him, after all.
The other option was that she could move to the city and live a life completely opposite than the one she has now...but one she's always lusted for. It basically goes against everything she's been taught, Claire was ready for an adventure though and this one has more than just presented itsself and she is ready to do it... assuming she can't get the man she loves. Even though it goes against her religion, she's always wanted to live a life with a lover, she's always kind of lusted how relationships go on movies or in a Taylor Swift song...like how they live in the city in a cute little loft, drive nice cars on the weekends, walk to work, have a ton of friends to go out with then find some guy and ..... let things fall into place momentarily. Although it's a change (which is what Claire is looking for) Claire is certain that if she does choose this lifestyle that she'll be terribly unhappy though. So why would she want this life style if she's already unhappy? It's too bad that the Hollywood actors are ONLY actors...and why do all of Taylor Swift's songs have to end in a break-up? All of this is spinning in Claire's mind. It's driving her insane! Why does it have to be this way? Why can't she just get married and start a family? Why, why, why?!
A couple of things one should know about Miss Claire, she's very easy going, she loves change even if that just means to rearrange her bedroom, buy a new wardrobe, or randomly quit her job and move. Anything will do. It seems that she was raised that way. Her mother still to this day is not only eclectic but she also rearranges every room...about daily. Her father, well, he wasn't really there for her growing up, he was too busy sleeping around. Maybe that's why she can't sit still? Maybe she just doesn't know how? Will marrying her best friend help? What if it doesn't? Will moving to the city calm her?
So now we're all wondering what she will do. Let people shoot down her dreams forever? Let her best friends hold her back? Or help her move forward in a more acceptable manner? Or will she have to go out and rebel just to show that she has an opinion of her own? Does she have an opinion of her own?
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